I am who I am, and I won’t apologize for it.
I know that I am BLESSED BEYOND MEASURE, but if I can be honest for a minute sometimes I feel empty, sad and alone. Right now I care about a person that I have to mentally let go. For the life of me I can not seem to get my mind to forget him but am I supposed to forget him or realize his purpose in my life. Often times we are told that some people are in your life for a season and a reason. What we are not told is how to get your heart to accept when that person season and reason are fulfilled. I am struggling because he was not a bad person at all. Often times he made me laugh, smile, think, and dream. For a second I allowed myself to dream of a future with him but just like that he’s gone. What hurts is that he’s so close yet so far away. I know the best thing is to let go, but I just need help in that department. I tell myself it would be much easier to move on if he was a complete jerk but instead he was a classic gentleman.
Here’s what I know:
-My Pain Has Purpose
-God’s Word is True
-All things will work for my good
-God has someone just for me
– NO ONE CAN TAKE MY BLESSINGS
But when I am honest with myself sometimes those truths are hard to believe . A wise man once told me to separate fact from feelings. The fact is him and I are not together, but I feel that we should be.
He’s a great person, but I have to get to a space where I can accept that as great of a person I think he is God has someone even better just for me.
Lesson to Learned: Never apologize for having a heart. During times of weakness we often blame ourselves or think we’re foolish for feeling. I truly am happy that I am capable of loving.
If you are struggling and at war with your heart find someone you can trust and tell them you need help. It is not easy, but in order to heal you have to let go and move forward. A important thing to remember is that God is Love and your pain has purpose. During your dark hours trust God and he’ll see you through. I know that this too shall pass, and one day it will all make sense to me why it didn’t work with Mr. Classic Gentlemen.
Until next time…… God is Love……… Love, Peace, and Hair Grease….